How to Find Strength When You are Being Abused
Have you ever noticed a newly planted tree that has been staked by a landscaper? You may think that the stakes will support the tree in the event of heavy winds. In most cases, the newly planted trees do not need to be staked. It’s an unnecessary “extra” step that some landscapers perform. Unless the tree is super “top heavy”, most newly planted trees do not need staking. Why?
Trees have a hormone called “auxin”, which helps play a key role in the direction of a plants growth. When a plant is staked, it can affect the caliper and taper of a plant—basically it can affect the tree’s growth. Where am I going with this? I like to compare “growth” of humans and trees because both share one thing—strength through adversity. I am also a horticulturist and love plants/people.
When the winds blow the trees around, the trees are busy producing Auxin hormones to help it become stronger. As humans, you can also become stronger if you look at your negative experiences and conquer the “lessons”. Discern on the “gift” each lesson gave you. Do you need to love yourself more? Show yourself more respect? Set healthier boundaries in your life?
You become more empowered when you see the negative “patterns” in your life that are repeating themselves over and over. Perhaps you are attracting more people in your life that treat you badly or you always make bad decisions. Most scientists and others will tell you that everything is “energy”. Like energy attracts “like” energy. Pay attention to the thoughts in your head. Up to 90% of your belief system is in your subconscious. You may have learned to give and give to others (with no boundaries) until it hurt, from a parent. Perhaps you were told you would not amount to anything in life because a parent was using “reverse psychology” to motivate you.
Without realizing it, today, you are attracting “patterns” of lessons you need to master for your own growth. Yes—they can be very painful. Who wants to be mistreated? No one. It’s up to you to take 100% responsibility for your life. When you take responsibility to get the help you need—your life can change for the better. Let me share a story with you. I was in a long-term alcoholic relationship 20 years ago. I went to an open AA meeting for help and noticed everyone was very happy and smiling. But, I felt broken and could not handle all the emotions in this small room. I quickly ran out and ended up in a large cleaning closet in this building. Closing the closet door behind me, I was mortified and began crying.
First, I could not escape the “happy” people and second, I was in a cleaning closet for crying out loud! I heard the message, “you belong in that meeting room” and I slowly walked back in that room for the moral support I needed. Everyone pretended they did not see me in the cleaning closet. I realized I had a long way to go to help myself become healthier and whole again. I had become “sicker” than the narcissistic alcoholic and needed help.
I was dealing with a narcissistic alcoholic in my life who nearly killed me in his “blackouts”. I had fought him off me many times and I knew he would kill me if I did not get help. He was very strong and it took all my energy to fight him off me. He was in denial. I was truly “sick” and it was affecting the quality of my life. Working 12 – 14 hours daily was my escape from this madness. I became a big “overachiever” in the Air Force. It was my escape.
After the open AA meeting, one of the scruffiest men I had ever met in my life, asked me to follow him to his house to meet his wife. There was something about that man that made me trust him. I followed behind his old beaten up car. Suspecting we were about to arrive at a trailer park, I mentally told myself it would be alright. The house I arrived at was a multi-million dollar home at Mexico Beach in North Florida. I put my hands over my face in disgrace and embarrassment again. I had gotten another good lesson in one evening. Never judge a book by its cover. This man was not only very wise—he was very wealthy too.
This beautiful home was the house I passed every day while walking on the beach. I had found solitude and grounding in walking in the sand and breathing the salt air.
Well, the scruffy man who came to my rescue was a retired Army helicopter pilot and his wife was an accomplished author. Lessons! I tell you. When you ask for help, whether through praying or with intention, you will get what you need, but not always how you expect it to come.
I only had a few months with this man and the open AA group as I was in the Air Force and about to transfer to the Black Hills in South Dakota. I was open to helping myself and it came in a peculiar way. Be open to getting the help you deserve. Take 100% accountability in becoming healthier and happier in your life. Claim your personal power by breaking the patterns of negativity in your life. Slow down and listen to your “inner knowing” that is telling you he or she is not the “right one”. Trust the gut-feeling that you should walk away from a situation that will dis-empower you. Say “no” to narcissistic people and keep walking to a more healthy and empowered life. Get professional help if you need it. You will find a way to afford it or you can reach out to www.211.org, which is a United Way program that offers many resources in each state that can support you on your journey. You deserve to healthy and happy!
If you need consulting or coaching to support you becoming healthier and more empowered–reach out to me at www.DawnMarieWestmoreland.com